Everything Is About Me

You love not for others but for yourself.

How often is it that a sudden realization comes to you.

Some thought in my mind said today, “You love for yourself not for others”.

You go through life and you do many things for many people, you take care of them, you take responsibility. Sometimes I feel that some people I care about are not grateful for what I do for them and have no idea how much effort I am making to just see them smile and be happy. Sometimes this thought makes me really mad. But today in midst of a madness as such, a realization came to me, that whatever I do for others, I don’t do it for them, I do it for myself.

I need these people in my life and which is why I get pulled to their beck and call. I love not for them but for myself because they fill my heart with joy and it is so addictive, this thing called joy that I never get enough of it.

So it is quite true, that I love for myself, and sometimes when the people whom I love make me mad, I forgive. I forgive them also for myself.

Are you? Free….

Why is freedom so essential to the soul?

Have you ever wondered?

I wonder why many times in life whenever we feel blocked or restricted thats when we feel frustrated.

Freedom is perhaps one of the most essential element of the soul.

Or freedom must be the very nature of our being.

In any case, freedom is definitely important to us all in different ways.

We all strive for independence, we all are happy when we get to do as we please.

Sometimes I think of the gypsies and vagabonds wandering all over the world with no predictability or routine.Are they free?

Is freedom in breaking habits and routines? Or is freedom in understanding the reason behind the way things are?

I believe that freedom is when we let ourselves be us.

It is when we are okay to make decisions based on instinct and perhaps when what we feel inside matches our behavior outside.

Just like in nature, how the animals are free and wander as they want. Just like the sun, moon, flowers, ocean, etc know when to do what, noone is guiding them besides their nature.

We human beings on the other side, have completely isolated ourselves from our true nature. We all try to fit into our society or our cliques, and most of the time spend time imitating others and following a tried and true path to what would be a “successful” life. It would not be wrong if I said that our socially accepted normalcy in terms of career or personality have become so restrictive that I wonder if it has killed many Picasso’s, Beethoven’s, Einstein’s from evolving.

We can all definitely make some room in our lives for a little more freedom for ourselves and others so that there is room for inspiration which really is fundamental for talent and creativity. Talent and creativity aside, freedom might be also be pretty important to live a full life and only when there is no restriction can light spread around and brighten up the space. 

Just a thought for tonight.

Goodnight! 🙂

 

Unspoken Words

Sometimes unspoken words freeze inside a persons heart

Some days you will argue and try to win

Some days you will sit shaking your head to everything that is said

Unspoken words sometimes speak through eyes

And everyone around can feel it in its absence

Some days we all accept

Accept that not everyone will understand

Accept that peace is more important

So you seal your lips

Let your words freeze

Close your eyes

Draw rainbows and butterflies

This place you imagine

All things to be right

What is there to argue about

There is no need to prove anything

Somedays its enough to exist

Somedays its easier to accept

And sometimes this works like magic

It makes the other person think

And they hear

Your Unspoken words

 

Nepali New Years (Year 2073) Dinner <3

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Dinner:

  • Brown Rice
  • Salad: Cut Spinach, Tomatoes, Cucumber, Seasoned with salt and pepper
  • Fried Trout: Marinate trout with Yogurt, Turmeric, Cumin Powder, Red Chilli Powder, Garlic, Ginger, Olive oil, Salt. Let it sit for 30 mins to an hour. Deep fry or bake as per your taste.
  • Dessert: Greek Yogurt with cut bananas, brown sugar and cardamom

May the new year be filled with happiness, positivity and growth!

Felicitations and Much Love ❤

 

POSITIVITY

Dear Readers,

Here is a dose of positivity for you and myself too. We all need love, support, compassion and positivity and I hope this finds when you need it!

Much Love ❤

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Bucket List

 

Another Sunday rambling is up for you all my dear readers. 🙂

A life that has a purpose and a goal is one that is fulfilling. If we have something that deeply motivates us, it becomes the fuel that propels us forward in life. It is important to reflect what it really means to live each day and how do you want your presence in earth to be utilized. There is only so much time in your hand, and there are many things you could be doing with it. So take some time and think about it. Better yet there must be something you are very good at and which could be really helpful to the community as well, and if we try, we all can find this combination of passion and service to make the world a better place in our own small way.

I created a bucket list today of the things I want to do in my life. The list of activities in this list make me excited for the days ahead and helps keep me on track so that I take some time to do the things I have always wanted to experience or learn . Sometimes sitting down and making a list helps you figure out what it is that you really want to do. In regards to my list, keep in mind that this list will be ever evolving 😉

I believe this is it for today. I have added links to my text, if you all are interested in some of these activities, the links might help. Would love it if you could share your Bucket List too in the comments below! 🙂

 

Much love! ❤

What do I want?

Once you decide on something, everything becomes easy. When you have not made up your mind there will always be friction. Most of us have struggled with certain roles and responsibilities. I have also had a few roles and responsibilities that I struggled with. A thought just came to me today that once we decide on something consciously, it becomes easier to take on the responsibility associated with it. Many a times I thought there was something wrong with the responsibilities that came with a certain decision I made. Most of the time, when I look back now, I see that I was ignorant about the true responsibilities associated with my decision. Sometimes, we want something but are not willing to pay the price for it. I have also many times wanted something really badly but refused to give up something in order to receive it.

If you want a really fit body, you have to go that extra mile and exercise, take care of your diet etc. If you want your mind to be peaceful, you have to meditate, you have to be more kind and compassionate towards yourself and others. If you want lots of friends, you have to go out, meet and help people. If you want a bigger position at work, you have to put in extra time and effort. Once we decide what we want, everything becomes clear. There is generally a mental fight we put up against so many things in life. We want that better job but are not willing to work hard for it or figure out how to get it. We want a bigger house but don’t want to learn how to save and invest money to buy that dream house. We want so many things, but we act like misers when it comes to paying the price for it.

It has struck me just recently how wrong I was in struggling against myself constantly and wanting things my way. I have realized that with any decision, any role come responsibilities that I don’t like doing. It is up to me to decide whether I want to keep fighting against myself or just accept a role in its entirety, with the good and the bad both. When we say to ourselves, I want something and I am willing to pay the price for it, we are actually doing ourselves a favor as we are conscious about the price we need to pay to get what we want.

 

 

 

 

 

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A writers paradise…

The smell of coffee and a stack of good books is sometimes just what I need to break the monotony of life. I want nothing more than to indulge in thoughts, to understand, to feel, to rationalize, and finally to break free and escape in a world with no boundaries. What is a writers paradise?
The world looks beautiful with the flawless, effortless face and colors of nature. The accuracy of our images, how we all look alike, yet if you look close enough you see how different we all are. Perhaps to the geese we all look the same, I thought, just as they all look the same to us. A writers paradise could be the moments they see things differently. The beauty and depth in the minute details of everything that circles life.
For me, it is the smallest things that catch my eye and touch my heart. Before I know I am gone and sailing in my thoughts, appalled and enthralled by everything that works without wires and batteries. It is the amazing efficiency with which life sustains itself within me, and outside me. The world teaches me of its history and its science in its own way, and I give examples by drawing metaphors. Which is why I say” The tides in my heart cause the banks of my eyes to overflow”. If you look closely you will see, this world is a reflection of our own lives. A writers paradise could be when they see that magic in life, the zing in the structures, life.
And when the night puts on its cloak, I go out for a stroll. Beneath the moonlit sky I feel completely in sync with the fabric of the world. Like a perfectly blended color in a painters reverie, like a part of jazz, and soul rnb. A writers paradise could be the ability to understand the depths of abstracts without being able to prove them all scientifically.

 

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The Apple Grove & A Stranger

The apple grove was just a little further down the path, Sonya, a smart and happy 8th grader, was happily skipping towards it. There in a bench nearby sat an old man, perhaps as old as time. Sonya stopped as she had never seen him before. She walked towards the old man and stared at him unknowingly but out of curiosity. The old man stared back from behind eyes that looked like they had some secret to tell, he had seen it all, the rise and fall, the ups and downs of life. He looked at Sonya. Sonya finally found her words and asked, ” Who are you? Ae you from a nearby village, never saw you here before”. The old man replied, ” I came here just yesterday my dear. I have been walking a long time. See my shadow keeps following me and I wanted to find a place where it won’t attach with me anymore. I am just tired but i still have not found the place, so tomorrow I will continue my search.” Sonya looked a little surprised, she had studied about how at different times of the day, a persons shadow casts at different place. She asked, ” Why do you want to get rid of your shadow? That is the strangest thing I have heard. Don’t you know that any object with substance will cast a shadow. It just means that you are blocking a part of light from passing through you and to the ground. ” ” Aha”, said the old man, ” See my dear, I want this light to pass through me, I want to let the light through”. Sonya thought for a moment, finally asking”What for”. “I have been seeking to illuminate myself as such that I cast no shadows in my paths. I want to in a way dissolve and be a part of this world in such a way that my existence is synchronized with the universe and I drift along lightly enough to never block the light in the paths that I walk.” Sonya thought for sometime, she could not totally grasp what the old man was saying. ” I don’t really understand what you mean by that, but I think what you are trying to do is not really possible”, said Sonya. “My dear, its all in the mind, when you close your eyes, can you see yourself? It is not impossible, it is just that you are not willing to see it or believe that it is possible.” Just as he had finished saying that, night fell and his shadow could not be seen as it was too dark. Sonya said excitedly, ” I know what you can do, you can live in dark place all your life, so that way you never have to see your shadow. If you would like I could make a cave for you and bring you water and food. You know I could really do that.” The old man laughed, ” Thank you for your offer my dear. But I like being in the light, it is just that I want it to fill me up so much that I won’t cast a dark shadow anymore. In life, whenever you want to get rid of something dark you have to go towards the light. If you keep staying in the dark you will never see the dark shadow.” Saying this the guy got up and walked along, ” So long, little girl. I hope you always see the light, so that you may see your dark shadow and learn to illuminate yourself in such a way that the shadow gets smaller and smaller and maybe it will disappear one day, all you would need is a lot of light. ” Sonya, sat there in the bench a little while thinking what must this old man be going through and why he was looking for so much light to get rid of his shadow. She could not make much of it and it was getting late, so she got up and went towards her home. She kept a journal and she wrote the strange encounter with the old man in this journal that day. Years later, she would look at this journal and perhaps understand a little that the old man was trying to seek wisdom and that his shadow was his ignorance, that he was trying to get rid of.
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