What do I want?

Once you decide on something, everything becomes easy. When you have not made up your mind there will always be friction. Most of us have struggled with certain roles and responsibilities. I have also had a few roles and responsibilities that I struggled with. A thought just came to me today that once we decide on something consciously, it becomes easier to take on the responsibility associated with it. Many a times I thought there was something wrong with the responsibilities that came with a certain decision I made. Most of the time, when I look back now, I see that I was ignorant about the true responsibilities associated with my decision. Sometimes, we want something but are not willing to pay the price for it. I have also many times wanted something really badly but refused to give up something in order to receive it.

If you want a really fit body, you have to go that extra mile and exercise, take care of your diet etc. If you want your mind to be peaceful, you have to meditate, you have to be more kind and compassionate towards yourself and others. If you want lots of friends, you have to go out, meet and help people. If you want a bigger position at work, you have to put in extra time and effort. Once we decide what we want, everything becomes clear. There is generally a mental fight we put up against so many things in life. We want that better job but are not willing to work hard for it or figure out how to get it. We want a bigger house but don’t want to learn how to save and invest money to buy that dream house. We want so many things, but we act like misers when it comes to paying the price for it.

It has struck me just recently how wrong I was in struggling against myself constantly and wanting things my way. I have realized that with any decision, any role come responsibilities that I don’t like doing. It is up to me to decide whether I want to keep fighting against myself or just accept a role in its entirety, with the good and the bad both. When we say to ourselves, I want something and I am willing to pay the price for it, we are actually doing ourselves a favor as we are conscious about the price we need to pay to get what we want.